Pain is just the first step. Or is it?

With my upcoming Chiron return – although it’s a little delayed due to Chiron retrograding at the moment – I spent quite an amount of musing about his part in relationship astrology. Sadly, my mentor in this field – Dawn Bodrogi – has passed away in November, before finishing her long-awaited book ‘Beyound the Wound’ on Chiron in Synastry.

I remember one of our talks about someones Mars being spot on my Chiron – she said that this was one of the most compelling and also most painful aspects. ‘He will hurt you. I’ll guarantee that.’ And so he did, in a very male/martian way. In the aftermath, I don’t know what made me so calm about it. Was it, because the whole thing felt like a part of my rebirth / healing process? She also said, that the Chiron person is usually the one, that is ‘spirtually more evolved’ and capable of going the extra mile, although there is no guarantee that it’ll pay off in the long run.

As I’m about to change a lot of things in my life at the moment, I thought of engaging more in astrology again, because the subject never failed to fascinate me over the last 34 years. Which says a lot about someone with Virgo rising, a Gemini Moon and Mercury / Sun in Aquarius, I guess 😉

So, for my own Chiron studies, I’d like to invite everyone to share their hurtful/healing relationship experiences with me. Chiron’s hurts are the one of the soul, not physical. If you want to participate, just send me your birth dates (date, time, place) and the one of the person you suspect you’re having (or had) a ‘chironic’ relationship with. I’ll check if Chiron is indeed involved and get back to you – either with a short explanation if your problems aren’t/weren’t caused by Chiron, or – if Chiron is involved in a significant way – further questions about how it all played out for you.
Also I’m interested in your personal Chiron-return storys. Chiron (in transit) returns to the place he is in your birthchart at a given point between age 49 – 51. Around ten years later followed by the more commonly known 2nd Saturn return which is also a pretty challenging time for most people.

My theory about the connection between these two major transits at the moment is: if you handled the Chiron return wisely and came to terms with your ‘inner wound’ – the 2nd Saturn return will find you prepared. If not … and this is just a shot in the dark at this point from my personal view – it might be a time, when both themes will show up on your doorstep. Your Chiron’s placement indicates where your soul is wounded and vulnerable – while Saturn represents your (karmic) fears.

Without pain, we’d never know what happiness feels like – and sometimes we just need to overcome our fears and be brave enough for the first step out of our comfort zone. It can hurt, but there is so much to be gained.

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Winter is coming …

Tomorrow the Sun will move into Cancer and we’ll experience the longest day of the year in the northern hemisphere. Which also means that from now on the days will get shorter again and – yes – winter is coming …

As my natal Moon is in the last degrees of Gemini I always feel this ‘change of season’ in my soul. This year even more so as Saturn is currently in a Position exactly opposite my Moon. The last time it has been in this exact spot was 29 years ago, in the summer in which I got married.

So I’d like to interpret this as a time of serious and longterm decisions about my future and most of all my soul’s happiness. Saturn is currently retrograde and so he was opposite my Moon in the beginning and will be opposite my Moon again at the end of this year, before he finally ‘moves on’. So I have this whole timeframe to properly prepare for ‘winter’.

People with their Sun or Moon in the last 10 degrees of Virgo and Pisces might experience this as a very hard time as Saturn is squaring their natal planets and this will mostly be felt as unwelcome boundaries to body & soul. Whereas the ones with their Sun or Moon in the last degrees of the Fire and Air signs (Aries / Leo / Sagittarius and Aquarius / Gemini / Libra) might be provided with a helpful set of ‘new rules’ or facing lifechanging reality checks.

In fact it finally seems that things are about to fall into place for me. With a price I’m willing to pay.

Happy midsummer to all of you out there.

 

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