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Oops. The Novel. First Mindmap.

To put the incredible amount of almost 35k single chatmessages from the last 9 months to a good use, I’ve decided to use them in an autobiographical novel about my strange Neptune/Saturn/Karma relationship. As you can see from my first mindmap of acts/chapters it will be not *too* serious, also not too focused on astrology and there will be quite a lot of sex😉
At the moment the end is still somewhat open, because “Neverland revisited” is about to happen in 4 months time …

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Of course I’ll be writing in German first and will need to find a good translator, so english readers might have to wait a bit longer. Because I’m still not sure how this book should “hit the market” maybe you can give me some feedback? Would you like to read it as an ebook – or to read stuff like that at all?

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When Neptune meets Saturn … aftermath

Yesterday morning I read the inspiring blog post about Neptune turning retrograde on June 13 from “The Butterfly Witch”. In it she wrote “Basically, in Neptune retrograde, the fog lifts …”.

Well in the case of my karmic-relationship-experience – about which I shared some astrological insights over the last 6 months – it certainly did. I had one of the shittiest mondays in the history of shitty mondays. As the karmic-lover was behaving a little too quiet since our last meeting 5 weeks ago, the thought “what would make this monday even more shittier, would be if he decides to break up now” crossed my mind. I sat down, opened my cell phone to just write this jokingly, when *ping* a message from him arrived. Stating, that he finally decided to be honest with me and that he met someone else some weeks ago. Wishing that we might stay friends etc.

At this moment in time Mercury had just entered his home sign – communicative Gemini. Unfortunately his position was then exactly opposite my “hopes and dreams” Neptune, who really didn’t appreciate this message. For some time now transiting Chiron was squaring my Moon – talk about hurt feelings due to decreasing communication, after a stay in “Neverland” which felt like a pretty good time for me.

Transiting Neptune was for some time now stationed exactly on my North Node. In review clearly foggying this point of “where I need to go in my life”. While transiting Saturn did his best in trying to give me a reality check by squaring my nodal axis for the second time since december. I actually had a very clear picture on december 30, when the square was exact for the first time, but … I didn’t liked it. And when the square went away, Neptune moved over the cusp of my 7th house of relationships and then settled on my North Node … and the dreamy-fog was swirling around me. So, rather surprisingly for me, when he turned retrograde yesterday, the fog was blown away hurricanestyle.

I could call it a day now. But the problem is, Neptune will move 4 more times across this point over the next 2 years. So I’ll better be ready when the neptunian fog returns at the end of the year. Maybe Saturn will be able to perform a better reality check for my feelings this time, while in opposition to my Moon shortly thereafter. In a way, I think I even would be up for a second round, as I feel that we haven’t solved this karmic problem properly yet. But that’s probably just my Chiron talking, who’s now on “cold turkey” because his drug called “Mars conjunction”, that felt so so good, has been taken away from him.

So the eternal battle “Dreams vs Reality” begins anew. But I don’t feel like crying. And for the time being I can see clearly now.

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You and Me and Karma makes Three … part 2

And it’s a wrap. Well at least a temporary one around my right wrist.😉

This is the follow up to my post from early march “upps … or: You and Me and Karma makes Three

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I visited the charming “Rabenschwarz” (meaning raven-black) Tattoo Parlour today and it took only about 10 minutes and that was that. Now Neptune & Saturn will battle infinitely on my arm.

I really like how it turned out🙂

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As the date was given by Calina, the tattoist, I just didn’t wanted to check the event chart beforehand. When I drew it up as I got home today, I couldn’t help laughing, as it is quite befitting this whole Karma-Tattoo-Thing. This whole chart is very very powerful.

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The most significant thing about it is probably the mutable T-square between Saturn in adventurous Sagittarius on cusp of the 3rd house (communication), Neptune in dreamy Pisces in the 5th house (romance) and Jupiter in 11th house (hopes & wishes) in communicative Virgo. In short: reality and dreams are very well connected today🙂
They are connected to the nodal axis as well, with the North Node on cusp of the 12th house. Which is all about Karma. Exploring one’s inner self, connecting the pieces of the puzzle.
My own natal nodal axis is at this moment in time exactly conjunct Jupiter/Neptune btw … reversed however with Neptune on my natal North Node in my 7th house of relationships.

As Mercury’s still retrograde, words don’t come easy, so I’ll leave it with this. Fellow astrologers please feel free to comment, there’s a lot in it.🙂

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Some foggy notions on Mercury’s current retrograde …

A lot of things didn’t happen according to plan during this Mercury retrograde period (which is about to end on May 23rd). A lot of things did. And although it felt like a good time for deeper understanding, words are still eluding me.

While on an emotional level … do you know the feeling, when you don’t want to but – for multiple reasons – simply have to leave a certain place and person at a given point? It doesn’t matter that you know, you’ll be back in a couple of weeks. It doesn’t matter that reason tells you that it is probably even for the better, just the way it is.

Because: it just doesn’t FEEL like it. So in a way you’re happy and sad at the same time. And a bit confused. Or a lot. As your brain seems to consist only of foggy notions, it’s hard to tell. In any event – it took me almost five days to start writing about it. Well at least sort of writing about it.😉

Let’s see what happens when Mercury stations direct on may 23rd … I suspect that in the meantime I’ll find me listening to this a lot:
The Velvet Underground / Foggy Notion

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upps … or: You and Me and Karma makes Three

Sometimes it seems a whole lotta karma can be set in motion with the slightest of triggers. In my case this was a very short word. Well technically not even a real word. Just ‘upps’ (german for ‘whoops’).

It took me some time to figure out the astrological triggers. Rather unsurprisingly all four of the ‘usual suspects’ were involved – namely Saturn, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto. Now, this is something that shakes you to the core and turns your world upside down. I had a long talk with N.Y. based astrologer Dawn Bodrogi about this and she said “everything is in motion and changing, it’s funny that you’re sounding completely calm about it”. In a way I really am. In a way I’m not. But I’m trying to make the most of it. The road to enlightenment and / or personal evolution isn’t straight. There is no ‘finish line’ in sight. Maybe it’s behind the next corner. Maybe not. But if I don’t keep moving on, I’ll never know.

While musing about my chart I was doodling planetary symbols and had – out of the blue – the idea to get a very special tattoo befitting this whole situation. I’ve been fascinated with tattoos since my dad got one, when I was about 12. I made it a rule, that every idea that got into my head had to last at least for half a year. With my erratic Gemini moon – so far – none of them did. But since the fascination for astrology is as old as the one for tattoos for me, this seems to be a solid enough basis😉

The idea I finally came up with consists of the symbols for Neptune, Infinity and Saturn. As it’s an infinite task to successfully combine one’s dreams with reality. One or the other will always get in the way or have the upper hand – at least for a while. And then the dance begins anew.

When I made the final sketch – which I’m about to discuss with a local tattoo artist in mid april – I suddenly realized, that the little, not even real word ‘upps’ somehow made its way in the drawing as well. Karma is some cunning bitch.

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When Neptune meets Saturn … or: how did I get here?

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Two weeks ago …

Waking up in a strange bed. Thousands of kilometres from home. A warm, naked man sound asleep beside me under the sheets.

The large city outside is already buzzing with energy. I get up, naked, wandering into the kitchen, checking the clock: 7 am. Jetlag, here I come. Taking a slice of watermelon from the fridge, opening the door of the balcony, settling on the sofa. A bird landing on the railing, peeping at me. Strange smells and sounds drifting inside. A sea of buildings as far as I can see stretching around me. Far far away from my ‘comfort zone’ – but in a way I’m suddenly feeling at home.

In my head David Byrne is singing: „You may ask yourself: Well, how did I get here?“


 
So this is what happens when Neptune meets Saturn. The master of dreams vs. the master of reality. Dreams collide with reality – or: dreams come true. Reality gets blurry around the edges – or: reality steps its foot down. It’s a bit of everything actually. When you experience a so called ‘double whammy’ in two charts between Neptune and Saturn – i.e. aspects from one’s to the other’s and vice versa – this screams ‘karma’ in capitals. A pretty interesting piece on this is found here.

Think of Gary Oldman as ‘Dracula’, whispering to Winona Ryder “I’ve crossed oceans of time for you.”. This is what it feels like, encountering a person with whom you share such a connection. The pull is magnetic, irresistible. How it plays out, nobody knows. Saturn is also the master of time, after all. So it may take some time, to solve that mysterious knot. They say ‘Karma is a bitch’ and this may be true, as this task can take more than one lifespan. Maybe you’re destined to meet again – because here and now was just a reminder, but not the right place and time.

Tomorrow it’s a new moon. Chinese new year. Year of the monkey. In Hermann Hesse’s wonderful poem ‘steps’ he says “A magic dwells in each beginning, protecting us, telling us how to live.”

No matter the final outcome – I’ve got a feeling that this has to run it’s course. And what year could be better suited for this crazy experience, than that of the curious, cheeky monkey?

Dream on dreamer – stay hungry, stay foolish …
the next flight is already booked.

Once in a lifetime – Talking Heads

You may find yourself living in a shotgun shack
And you may find yourself in another part of the world
And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile
You may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife
You may ask yourself, “Well, how did I get here?”

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, after the money’s gone
Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground

And you may ask yourself, “How do I work this?”
And you may ask yourself, “Where is that large automobile?”
And you may tell yourself, “This is not my beautiful house”
And you may tell yourself, “This is not my beautiful wife”

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, after the money’s gone
Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground

Same as it ever was, same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was

Water dissolving and water removing
There is water at the bottom of the ocean
Under the water, carry the water
Remove the water from the bottom of the ocean
Water dissolving and water removing

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, into the silent water
Under the rocks and stones, there is water underground

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Leting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, after the money’s gone
Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground

You may ask yourself, “What is that beautiful house?”
You may ask yourself, “Where does that highway go to?”
You may ask yourself, “Am I right, am I wrong?”
You may say to yourself, “My God! What have I done?”

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, into the silent water
Under the rocks and stones, there is water underground

Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by, water flowing underground
Into the blue again, after the money’s gone
Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground

Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, look where my hand was

Time isn’t holding up, time isn’t after us
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, hey let’s all twist our thumbs
Here comes the twister

Letting the days go by
Letting the days go by
Once in a lifetime
Let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by

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When Neptune meets Saturn. Or: time for a reality check.

During the last 2 years, I learned some important things about my “comfort zone”. First of all, that it actually wasn’t what it seemed to be, but that it somehow had evolved without asking. With a longterm Neptune (Lord of Dreams) transit approaching the cusp of my 7th house of relationships in Pisces (Neptune’s natal realm), transiting Saturn (Lord of Reality) on the cusp of my 4th house (home & comfort zone) AND my natal Neptune which is exactly located there, of course I somehow knew I had it coming.

So in my chart Neptune reigns over relationships and also my “homebase”. Interestingly, this homebase / comfort zone of mine lies in the sign of openminded, adventurous Sagittarius. Often associated with foreign countries, philosophy or finding the meaning of life. Whereas relationships always had a sort of dreaminess to them. But as both transiting planets are forming a square between them for some time now, it’s clearly a time when dreams are confronted with a reality check.

Which so far turned out to be a good thing for me. I’ve met someone just before he was about to experience his second Saturn-return. Which of course also means that this persons Saturn is conjunct my Neptune. While his Neptune is opposite my Saturn. Anyone’s seeing a theme here? I don’t believe in coincidences like that. And so I jumped in. As my North Node (life’s goal) is also in Pisces in my 7th house, experiencing strange relationships of all sorts seems to be my fate.🙂

So on thursday I’ll be travelling to … well let’s just call it “Far Far Away” or maybe even “Neverland” … to just make some dreams real for a brief period of time and see how it feels. I found my mum’s Angel-Oracle today and just asked it about my trip out of curiosity … this is what I got:

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The first card says “go – observe – do” and the second one “enjoy”. This was more than I was hoping for and I’ll certainly do exactly that. So stay tuned. Maybe there’s more to come.

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